rainbowbutterfly says:
yesterday....was the preliminary rounds for Extreme sports. it was held in Sentosa.left my house kinda early to go over to his place. haha! i then waited for him to get ready and everything. andddd the horror begiN! the red sea started flowing. like why nowwww! so yeah, i was lucky though. i didnt plan on swimming anyways! haha. so we left for parkway where my baby got his shoes. we then found something out! ahha ;) its gonna be kept. not goin to say it out here.we ate at WhataFish. both of us had fish and chips! yummyyyy~! hahaha. sixiu called. didnt know how to get to sentosa, so i directed her! ha. we then left for harbourfront in a cab. haha...we were like super early? hahaha,we then met up wit jian wei. Got to sentosa, didnt know they raised the price already. we got to the beach,i settled down wit my cute girl ; Amanda! hahah... she was soooooooo hot yesterday? in her blue bikini and pink mini skirt.ahah! sooooooo cute!Chatted wit her for awhile while the guys went to get registered. They were gonna be in wave D. lol. Baby's number is D 33 and Jian wei's was i think D 34? they then started, i told my baby that if he couldnt make it, dont push himself. that silly boy of mine lost his contact lens when he was taking out his goggles. so i became his eyes. nothing much happened after that.
we then left the island wit fengnian,fengheng,jian wei and raymond. we went to eat at the hawker center to have something light. we then left. sent the guys all to the mrt station. we then made our way to harbourfront to await the arrival of MAMA CHRIS! haha..and also aunty judy and my baby's eldest aunt! they are such a lively bunch!hahaha.we then left for dinner at Siglap..was niceee. after that , aunty judy sent me home. x)) that was yesterday. today is a busy busy day for my baby again. he has cell at 12 and an outing till about 8? as for me, i'll be having my cell at 5. but will be meeting keeve at 430. x) byeeeeee peeps.

I have decided to handover my Motorola to my sister who has been incessantly bugging me to give it to her. So now, i'm currently stuck with a Nokia 7250. No, i am not complaining. I used it a long while ago. So it's just somewhat going back to it. I missed it dearly. The sleek metallic design, the 'tough' buttons. Yea, I missed it alright. Too much. But anyways, tomorrow's the prelimanaries. Got myself the Addidas ACG amphibious shoes. :) No new mobile phones for me till 3 months later i suppose.

rainbowbutterfly says:

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through, through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


Baby, this song says it all. thanks for everything you've done. be it the scoldings or blessings.x) all i can say is that you really have changed me. x) Happy 11th Month baby!

Mother bought me the new Motorola V878 yesterday. Looks pretty much like a ladys' phone, or perhaps it is. It's cool, i can even take videos with it! What's more, it's actually smaller than your 8250 :) But of course, it's a foldable phone. It weighs a mere 83-85 grams. Cool pixels, nice polyphonic ringtones. I think i've changed my perceptions of Motorola mobiles, from morbid and infashionable, to state-of-the-art and classy. Firstly, before lifting off into the realm of congratulations to myself, i wanna say a great big HAPPY ELEVENTH MONTHSARY to my sweetest and ever adorable, caring, etc... the list goes on, girlfriend, Tiara! You're the absolute character in my life who is indispensable, like bees to honey, and butterflies to flowers. Yea, you get the picture :) So now, here goes the good news!

By the grace of God, i passed all my modules! Ecstatic is the emotion i feel! And elated i still am! For what deemed a failure to me, i lifted it up to God and voila! He worked his miracles and here i am, telling you i passed all my modules! And i thought i wouldn't make it! Especially for Engineering Math, where i certainly am not keen in. The trumpets of victory resounding in my head. The silent praises to God never-ending in my heart. I still am in shock, though to some a pass isn't quite the result they want. But for a guy who has had never been good in math, i say it's as good as it gets. So praises to the miracle-working God and congratulations to my classmates, whose results shows sheer hardwork and determination. :)

Attended yesterday's prayer meeting. It was nothing short of being fantastic. The presence of God was tangible and the praise & worship, fantastic. It couldn't have been better! All the jumpings and singing, shoutings and prayings certainly left me with a hoarse throat. Though it can't be as bad as my baby's, because she missed school today. She's down with the SORE THROAT. :( Too bad, beacause she has to give her art paper a miss, resulting in the usual protocol of high school, which is to take the results of her first paper and adding it to the.... Bah! I'm dumb. But i'm a HAPPY dumb man. It sounds wierd, the sentence. Doesn't it? Also, Jian and myself attended the briefing for the Xtreme Sports. The prelimenaries are tomorrow. The events included in the race, are physically demanding. We were told that a present COMMANDO, who tried and tested the whole course, found it TOUGH. What more us?! Us, as in youths who barely go to the gym, save for the school or national representatives in any sports. Our aim: To complete the whole course without passing out. :) One race, one chance. And i intend to complete it, giving it my best shot. I'll be doing Route 1, which is the inclusion of both swimming and running. Venue: Sentosa. The whole event only reminds me of the biathlon i took part a few years back ago in '99 which at that time, i was still in high school. I swam so hard i almost drowned. So i wonder if this time, i would drown. I doubt. Haha.. Best part of it, i am certified in the area of Life-Saving but i have no qualifications for a swimmer. :) And i have a license in diving too. -Smile- Isn't life wonderful? The anticipation is arising and swelling. My heart is beating faster and faster, each time i think about the whole event. Aim: Completion of the course. 'The person in front, is to be over taken of.' Definitely a slogan i will use tomorrow. Yes, it is the one used in the previous Nike adverts.

So in the meantime, it is audios, and wish me luck guys! God bless ya'll :)

yesterday was awesome! hahas! well, firstly, service was great! Jian brought 3 other new friends! Like wow! and two of them responded to the altar call! woo hoo! Praise the Lord! wow! the Lord will always work his miracle! anyways, i'll be doing the swimming part for Xtreme Sports! and jian will be running! haha.... swimming, is it an obstacle? NO! i will conquer it! the prelimanary rund is this friday. hope i make it through to the finals. this is it! the day of reckoning! haha... right. anyways yesterday was also my paternal's side, grandmother's birthday! she's 70! but surely she doesn't look 70 to me! more like in her late fifties to me! and obviously everyone was dolled up and all. my baby went too! she looked absolutely fabulous. :) everyone in my paternal side went of course. and i met many uncles and aunts whom i have never seen before in my entire life, and others whom have been lost for more than a decade. wierd happenings too. not to explain, the 'aunt' who was my age. she was... somehow a little... wierd. yea, wierd is the word. should get my baby to blog about it laters, she'll decribe the whole scenario to ya'll. in the meantime, gotta run. see ya! and God bless! :)

the only reason why i'm blogging now, is because my connection is working! weeEE!! praise the Lord! not only is it working, it's faster! the Lord surely works in abundance! i feel so glad, and sad at the same time. lots of things coming up in the week. i'm not sure if i handled it well enough. :(

rainbowbutterflyy says:
well well, its the arrival of the MidYears... ahh, yeah, i know that almost the whole of singapore has finished it while YCKSS is still having it! so far, 4 papers are down. im left wit lets see,history ,combined science(physics and chemistry) , math paper 2 and art . wow, oh and did i mention i have 2 extra days of holidays as there wont be any papers for me on the last two days of school. buttttttt! bummer, i have to go back to school on the 4 of june. thank goodness it is not on the first,second or third of june cause that is when the youth conference is! uh huh. tiara is excited! she wontt miss the youth conference for anything. okok. at 11 today, history paper. on Germany. I HATE HITLER ! stupid man. he is meannn! ohh well, gonna study somemore. wouldnt want to fail this term.anddddd yeah, 11 more days to youth conference!
okies,gotta run now. wish me luck pleaseeeeeeee. bye.

okay, the 'cable guy' is gonna call me and make an appointment to try and solve this 'case'. hope everything will be well and the sails will go up and the yatch, smooth-sailing. :) but of course 'yatch' meaning my connections yes? :) so long people, be right back. office work is worse than i thought. mono-tonous, boring, and repetitive. =(

called the 'cable' guy. he's gonna try trobleshoot the problems i've been facing such as the FREQUENT disconnections and inconsistent and fluctuating bandwidths. hope he calls me back on my mobile. if not, i'm gonna have to call once more. but the guy who answered sounded very familiar. too familiar. haha... sounded like Shi Wei from church. lol.. he went like so it's Mr John? haha yah yah... we'll see this coming Sunday if he approaches me about it. Oh yah, he's still in NS. so it isn't him eh? Gonna blog laters, be right back. Gonna go check out the numbers for turn-tablism. I'm so excited over it!

i was just composing and this came to mind. tell me your views please :) thanks!
If one day i asked, would you lie?
If one day i saw, well would you hide?
If one day i knew, then would you run away?
All i ask for, is the truth from you.

all praises to the Lord! two more souls were added into the kingdom of the Lord yesterday! two friends of mine were saved! wow! i am so excited for them! i believe their lives now will be transformed and the hand of God will mould them into better persons! praise the Lord once more! wow! i'm so excited!

have you ever wondered? yes, just wondered. about how great life is? let's break it down. hmmm... i'm not descriminating against nor promoting, so spare me the criticism, if any. but here's what hit me; The 'Truth' people seek for. for an instance, let's take Buddhism. they see the 'Truth' or rather enlightenment, as Buddha. (i'm a chinese, i know) but what is Buddha? if you further your knowledge and do some slight research, you understand that the true meaning of 'Truth' (in Buddhism) means to be void. which is, absolute nothingness. point is, is there any sense in that? :) this which i leave for you to ponder upon. but now, it certainly is time for me to retire to bed. so i bid ya'll fare de well and sugar dreams, as i head to my humble little room.

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

in the office now, getting serenaded by oldies and breathing in the cigarette-contaminated air of which my dad caused in his room. hardly the best environment to work in, or at least for me. i'm getting paid for, by just coming to the offce and doing practically nothing. maybe i should just tell my dad not to pay me anything at all? just apply a debit card for me eh? i want the black card, or perhaps the mini? any of those would certainly be great! *smiles* haha... i feel so sleepy. my mum woke me up early to have breakfast at the nearby coffee-inn. had myself a very Singaporean breakfast indeed. had to myself two half-boiled eggs for starters, then followed by two slices of kaya toasts. then i had also mee-siam, and nasi-lemak. not forgetting the ever-favourite 'Teh with ice' aka 'Teh Paeng'. think that's how you spell that. anyways, have gotta go now, gonna go look for something to do now. ciaos people.

RainbowButterflyTiara says:
Its 10:16 am...waiting to go to school to take my english mid years. x( i wanna go out! i hate exams. i hate school. but i love Jesus! amen.x)

RainbowButterflyTiara Says:
It is currently 12:56PM according to the clock on my computer.And little tiara is slacking her ass off instead of studying.haha,but she will after she is done on the computer.well,been sick for quite a while alreadi.just been to the docs yesterday. two days MC including yesterday.suppose to have another day off for tmr, but i will be havin my english Mid-years which is totally boring and to make it worse, my paper starts at 1 and it ends like at 5? this also means tat i wont be able to go out! ahh well , no one would go out wit me except for my baby. BUT! he is working and he wont go out wit me till my exams are over. BUMMER! but baby, i still love you yea? x) hahaha, okies. he is now at work. and he is talking to me on MSN! YAY! REJOICE!PTL! PTL! hahaha, jsut took me medicine. ITS DISGUSTING! x(
OH! a question for you peeps.leave your answer on the tag-board yeah?
-Is Motherhood a blessing or a curse?-
haha.redudant post. but baby wants me to update.so yea,sorry to bore you guys out. -im out!-

alas! the exams are over and done with! freedo-.. okays, maybe not. starting monday, means tomorrow, i'm gonna start my first day of work at my dad's office! as an apprentice technician of course. but i'll be basically doing EVERYTHING. from repairing sophisticated equipments, to writing complex programmes. all these means; work. work, and more HARD work. it's all worth it i suppose, considering the fact that i'm gonna ask for 1K. if not, i'll only get a measly $700. =P wells, least it's something and not free labour that my dad was 'hoping' on. (sorry dad, burst ya bubble.) =) ha... a nine to five job. and now, i've got to start training for the extreme sports contest. short-term goal; beat daniel pok and keeve. long-term goal; be as fit as them. no wait, better. :) and my team-mate bennett, SP's sailor is teaming up with myself, SP's hockey player. not exactly the kind of match anyone would deem appropriate. but heck it, we're gonna give it our all and win something! anyways, today's mothers' day! wishing all mothers and mothers-to-be, a very HAPPY DAY! ;) especially to my mum, aunty tina, and aunty yunita. :)

can't seem to concentrate on my engineering math. i don't feel quite right, something's wrong. i'm troubled.

have you ever been to the brink of losing everything? well i have. felt it again this morning when i woke up. it is, frankly no surprise to myself according to the fact that i'll be harrassed by the past once in awhile. the actress whom i seriously rate two thumbs up. the deceits, the acts. wow! she should've been the epitome of all movie stars and the role model of all the other actress-es wanna-be(s). she was so good at covering-up. the double identity. of what you ask? no no, she isn't superwoman, nor catwoman, nor any other super heroines you can think of. to me, it was more like a super villain. haha... V-woman. no pun intended. but yea, V as in that kinda V. not virgina you sicko. what other Vs can a MODEST woman have? yes! you're enlightened! VIRGINITY! she kept her secret identity no more until civilian J came into her life and dug it ALL out. what is a relationship without the TRUTH! oh! the horror! (no sarcasm intended... right.) but i still have to give her the utmost credit in moulding my character into what it is today. :) currently, i'm with the best and the prettiest gurl i've ever met in my life till now and perhaps in the future, Tiara. moral of the entry; the TRUTH will ALWAYS PREVAIL, no matter how hard you try to cover-up. :) i should really put much more trust into you than it is currently. afterall, you chose me amongst the others who tried and are still trying to get you. guess i really am one lucky guy eh? heck it, i AM. no regrets, no second-thoughts about it. but all i ask for is the truth in everything. be assured too, i give you my word.

i learnt this the hard way; never run up the stairs in a moment of panic. it will cause you serious injuries. like a sprained toe, sprained thumb, and an injured heel.

mezza9; the whole movie kept replaying over in my head. met the mum, aunty yunita, uncle ahmad, ashley, and most importantly, the birthday gurl. hyatt hotel. mezza9 again; totally unforgettable. tiara, gorgeous gurlfriend. 16th birthday. happy, sweet. pretty, hot. goodness, i'm in a mess of sweet-lovin' emotions. this is wonderful. mezza9. :) aunty tina ;) i hope she likes me though. second time meeting tiara's mum. it sure was an adraneline rush. ahahas... aunty yunita can be a comedian, she's good! lol... and ashley's her toy-boy. haha.. right man.. and now i can see! shirley and aunty yunita looks so much alike! that's why they're mum and daughter. lol.. yesterday.. had so much fun and sucha a great time i cannot describe. indescribable. incredulous. wonderful. amazing. my oh my.. :) i love you. let us keep this relationship going on, with Jesus as the centre of the relationship, truthful, pure, and fun. :) but it's just sometimes i can't seem to feel secure. i hope to overcome that, together with you. you're the love of my life. i'm serious, but it's never too soon. we'll last. let's show 'em we can do the impossible. listen; You're the Light of my Life - Lara Fabian and Lee Hom.

RainbowButterflyTiara says:
yesterday was a great time of fellowship wit me mummy..we kinda went shoopping for clothes to wear on my birthday which is tmr btw.hurhur.. aiint i evil! ahah! x) im so glad that my birthday falls on a sunday.. cause i'll be celebrating my birthday wit everyone esp my most beloved, Jesus. i really hope tmr would be an awesome day. i dont need presents, i just want my baby! okies, getting back to the shopping trip, my mummy bought me a veryyyy sweet and cute looking white top.. its so cute!! x) and a white skirt.. i'll be as pure as snow tmr!ahah! uh huh.. bought new sandals...hope sister shirley wont scold me if i wear that for duty cause it has heels! soooooooooo she wont have the right to say that i am wearing slippers! ahahah x) ahh wells, what else is there to update? oH! my mummy's friend bought me a nice pink lonngggg butterfly wallet!its nice...but kinda empty! x((( ahh wells,,gonna hit the books now! but not before i change the songs in my mp3 player!

Just a quote, "If there’s really a need can always come to me…I’ll always be happy to be there for you…"

okay here's the final verdict:
i love assuring you of my love, but yet i'm the one that needs the assurance. i contradict myself once too many. why is it always that i have to worry about things that i told you not to worry about? but i guess it's just me and my really wierd mind. i'm either a hardcore mental sadist that loves to play with my own mind, making myself confused and hurt. i have no clue as to why i do it! what is that network that links people up together and let others write testimonials anyways! (i'm not making any allegations against it, i'm just describing. *right..*) read yours and sort of came across something maybe i shouldn't have stumbled upon. i regretted venturing into your 'testimonials'. thought i wouldn't find anything, but guess i was wrong. anyways, who is to blame? me i guess. (told ya i'm a mental sadist). depression? you thought only YOU would have. i'm always asking you to trust me and all. i think i understand how you feel. but surely mine is much worse. :( lots of depressing thoughts coming into mind now. i'd better sign off now and go seek solace in God. He's the only one who can comfort my hurts and my pains, those that far exceed mortal emotion descriptions. one word; INSECURITY. that's all i have to say.
small little revelation; Procrastination = Laziness = Un-Godly = Sin.